Again I can’t say it, feels rough. It’s not new, happening all the time every one’s life. The great thing is people do get over it. I always do think time is good teacher. Life goes on. Within couple of days I’ll forget everything. I wanted to show her how much feeling I have got! I would do anything literally anything, if she asks me to do!!
Long time ago someone told me, if you don’t ask, you won’t get, but, I can’t ask !
Like all third-rate people, I do dream every day, make plan how I’ll do it, but never tried to implement.
When I told her, she needs to start trusting me, it’s very important,
She said I don’t always tell her the truth!
If I always tell her the truth I wouldn’t need her to trust me. Would I!
When your friend knows, you like her, love her, then she start taking the advantage in every possible way or piss you off. I’m not saying everyone is the same, but most of them are like that.
The reason, I have a crash on her,’’ I can sense her approach before I see her!’ she always ignores me.’ Whenever I look at her my eyes hurt, I can’t constantly enjoy her beauty, I have to close my eyes need to look back again.’’ Some time I do think she knows I do love her, like her. But she acts like- she doesn’t know any things. Moreover, I do think every girl has got same instinct.
In life there are lots of love goes without notice, without recognition. Some time we do have feeling for some days, weeks or months and then it’s gone. BY saying it’s ‘gone’ I mean-the ‘feeling window’ goes close! We cannot forget that feeling completely. Any time that ‘window’ get chance its get open. Because, the love was only one way, ‘outgoing’!
I was thinking, ‘I would drink couple of glasses form her Sea of heart’. But it seems even thou she own the ‘Sea’, she is miser. I don’t have big heart like her, but still I don’t mind to shear.
She was teaching me language, some unknown reason she stopped that, I was looking for cause, but can’t find any. It’s hurts when you are looking for a reason and can’t find.
However, It is one way love, she hasn’t got any idea that-I like her. She is 5 years younger than me,( i know this is not a big deal), she has got strong personality, I’m really scared I’ll lose mine, which I don’t want. She is not mature enough yet.
When a dream goes broken, of course there is pain in heart, but we have to carry on moving...!!
NB : To my language teacher.OZ....
