An un-posted letter to O.Yadirgi !!

Dear Yadirgi,

I thought what you said to me the other day, about me. I stayed up half the night thinking about it. Then something occurred to me. I fell into a deep sleep and haven’t thought about it since. You know what occurred to me?

You’re just a kid. You don’t have the faintest idea what you’re talking about. You never have been out of your surroundings. If I ask you about love you will give me some book theory,-‘’ by saying you can’t see it, it’s only feeling.’’ You have no idea what the hell is ‘’feeling’’. If love is only feeling, then would you consider yourself, felling a love with a person who is sexually incompetent?? Of-course not, isn’t it?

 If I ask you about Men, You’d probably give me a syllabus of your personal favourites. You may have even been laid a few times. But can’t tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a man and feel truly happy, you’ve never looked at a man and been totally vulnerable, known someone that could level you with his eyes, feeling like God put angel on earth just for you, who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn’t know what it’s like to be his angel, to have that love for him be there forever, through anything.

You don’t know about loss, because that only occurs when you love something more than yourself. I doubt you’ve never dared to love anybody that much. Maybe you do have lots of text friends, but, if I ask you name one of them, who don’t want to have sex with you, but truly like you as you are now and will like you when you’re older. You won’t be able to give a name. Because, you know that, there is no one among them.

I look at you; I don’t see an intelligent, confident girl. I see a scared, indecisive kid. You’re a tough girl, no one possible understand depth of you. How hard your life has been, how you feel, you’re terrified what you might say. Only handful of people can chose the different way. I don’t think you’re one of them.

Now you have got the beauty, perfect physical condition, so you can go out with anyone, but think about after 10 or 15 years. When you won’t have that beauty any more, you will get married a man, who won’t understand your value, Chance is break up follow by divorce! Well! Who’s best friend is ‘’Red bull’’, No one expect batter then that!!

Look at your wise, noble mum, sacrificing her beautiful life for her daughters. She has taken father and mothers both responsibilities on her shoulder. She doesn’t have any choice, because your father is not there anymore. All Mums are same; they will sacrifice themselves for their child. It is children’s responsibility to relief their parents.  I wish I could get one chance to do something for her.Don't you think somethings wrong??

Dear Yadirgi, if you think I’m writing you this letter, because you said you don’t want to be…! Or you don’t want anything from…!bla..bla..bla.. Then you’re 100% wrong. If you think this is not my business, then also you’re wrong. Because, the definition of ‘right & wrong’ are varies person to person. I’m one of those people, who always want to give, don’t expect anything Back. You didn’t recognise your best friend. If you forget everything, then just remember this- ‘A time will come, when you‘ll need someone like me, what a mistake you maid!’ I wish I could be there that time. No one is perfect, you’re not, and I’m not. But the question is whether or not we’re perfect for each other?  That’s the deal, that’s what intimacy is all about. Use to my mum call me shameless cat, I have got lots of cat habit. If you hit a naughty cat, he will go way for some time, and then come back few minutes later. If I’m sending you this letter you’re lucky, if not then also you’re lucky.

Your

HasAn

(This is an imaginary letter,)

Hate me or Love me This is I Am !!

It has been quite a long time I’m away from my family, lots of things I really don’t understand. I always think everyone will be same as me; there is no one you need to give answer to, can go home any time, come out any time, no one will wait, or ask any question. 

One of my friend asked if I don’t listen to her and don’t change the way I do things. Then she will stop talking to me.

This creates a big problem. Some time I even don’t listen to my Parents, especially my Mum, how I’m gonna listen to her all the time? Well actually, I do listen, but I don’t follow the advice.

Maybe I could do some compromise, I suppose!  But, it’s really difficult; I do follow my own way. 

If she doesn’t want to speak to me, it will be entirely her choice. I can’t make someone to like me, love me!! If she doesn’t understand, it’s not her fault; maybe, I could not able to make her to understand, or my expectation is faulty, my love is not pure!! 

And anyway, we won’t get everything’s we want. Some of the desire will be always left over. 

It’s totally someone’s choice, what type of person she wants be with, goes with.

It’s all happen because of me, I was asking too much. I’m the ideate. Not realising family people can’t come out any time they want, but, it’s ok! you do learn by mistake.

I know it doesn’t matter what I think! But, still some time do wonder human are very unlucky! When someone like you, loves you, true love, we don’t recognise that? We think this is craziness! When the loveone wants do something willingly, think this is rubbish, as a human we never appreciate that. If someone doing something for us without asking any return, we don’t believe them .People always  give their true, real love to someone who doesn’t deserve it, who is not capable to give the price of real and true love, some time even does hurting, shouting.

How can she stay away for me and go? How can her heart forget me so? That perfume on her breath is me. How ever will she stop, not breathe? 

Meeting with an Angel.

Last time i saw the Angel a week ago. Since I was remembering Angel form bottom of my heart every day, but, Angel wasn’t turning up, until yesterday. Finally when Angel came I asked;

: You said, you will come whenever I do call you, but you didn’t.

: You should know Angel has got the family; they can’t come whenever they want. And if you see me every day you will lose interest, if people get anything easily they don’t take care of it. So, why you were calling me? Angel replied.

: I’m having some problem!

: What is it?

: Every time I do close my eyes, a smiley face comes up, whenever I do try to look at that face, my eyes hurt, because she has got very powerful eyes. There is something’s in her face so powerful. I can't explain. 

: How long have you been dreaming that face?

: It’s all started five months ago, it was occasionally, ones a week, but day by day it’s increases. Now I do see that face every day.I'm scared to close my eyes.

: Do you understand what happening?

: Yes, I think I do! But, it hurts. I want to get over it.

: I don’t think you will be able to do it. You‘ve just opened a ‘feeling window.’ Even thou if you close that, still window will be there.

: Does she know about your feeling?

: I don’t know! Sometime I think she does.

: Do you know you have a big problem?  You do jump for conclusion very quickly; you need to go more slow approach, you need to give chance’ love tree’ to grow up, it is very ‘soft baby tree,’ if you shake it too much it will break down. The way you have feeling for her, maybe she doesn’t think the same way.

: I would like to meet her family!

: You, human are so predictable; always want to get everything together, you‘ve just meet. You know, love is not sin, love is the name of patient, love is not only happiness, inside the love there are sadness, there are sacrifices, forgiveness, can you do that?

: I don’t know, it feels- my breath was incomplete, heartbeat incomplete, incomplete was I.

But now the moon is full, complete in the sky, and now with her complete am I....!!

Touch By Angel !

From my childhood I wanted to meet an Angel, I was looking everywhere I go, every things I do, but I never meat one, I’ve lost my hope, thought- they don’t exist.

Last week an Angel came on my dream, white cloths, ginger heir, flower in hand. And said,- ‘I heard you are looking for an Angel for quite a long time!! Do you want to meet one?’

I thought just only dream. Second time as the same, but third time got bit serious, when Angel came in, I said, you don’t exist and you are not real! I’m dreaming because, I wanted to meet one. Angel said, ‘if you want to see me in real com to …Park.’ (Can’t give the full name some people might get excited).

It’s faraway! I replied.

:You need to make some sacrifice, if you want to meet an angel. 12.00. On Friday.

I went there at 11.45 because, I was so excited, and followed all the procedures told me to follow.

12.00 o’clock no one in. 12.30 no sign of Angel, when I was considering myself as stupid! at 1.oo o’clock I finally I saw the Angel. And said, - because, you are an Angel so you are allowed to come one hour late!

Angel said, ‘I was checking your patience. If you want to have good things in life, you need to have some patience.’

: What do you think? Have I got pass?

: It’s long way to go, we just meet. I can’t say anything yet. You need to be passionate, have to be crystal clear what you want in your life.

: Can I touch you?

: If you do touch me, you will lose your attraction..! Angel replied.

: If I don’t touch you, it will be a dream. I don’t want to be in the dream!

: Ok! Go on then! But remember, take everything slow and easy, don’t rush. You will get whatever you want if you are patience.

I was really scared to touch angle hand, but when did it, there was electric shock went into my body, it was rear feeling, I can’t explain. I wasn’t sure what to do!!!  

: When I can see you again? I asked.

: Whenever you like. Just remember me from bottom of your heart. I will be there !

One way Love !!!

Again I can’t say it, feels rough. It’s not new, happening all the time every one’s life.  The great thing is people do get over it. I always do think time is good teacher. Life goes on. Within couple of days I’ll forget everything. I wanted to show her how much feeling I have got! I would do anything literally anything, if she asks me to do!!
Long time ago someone told me, if you don’t ask, you won’t get, but, I can’t ask !
 Like all third-rate people, I do dream every day, make plan how I’ll do it, but never tried to implement.
When I told her, she needs to start trusting me, it’s very important,
She said I don’t always tell her the truth!
If I always tell her the truth I wouldn’t need her to trust me. Would I!
When your friend knows, you like her, love her, then she start taking the advantage in every possible way or piss you off.  I’m not saying everyone is the same, but most of them are like that.
The reason, I have a crash on her,’’ I can sense her approach before I see her!’ she always ignores me.’ Whenever I look at her my eyes hurt, I can’t constantly enjoy her beauty, I have to close my eyes need to look back again.’’ Some time I do think she knows I do love her, like her. But she acts like- she doesn’t know any things. Moreover, I do think every girl has got same instinct.
In life there are lots of love goes without notice, without recognition. Some time we do have feeling for some days, weeks or months and then it’s gone. BY saying it’s ‘gone’ I mean-the ‘feeling window’ goes close! We cannot forget that feeling completely. Any time that ‘window’ get chance its get open. Because, the love was only one way, ‘outgoing’!
I was thinking, ‘I would drink couple of glasses form her Sea of heart’. But it seems even thou she own the ‘Sea’, she is miser. I don’t have big heart like her, but still I don’t mind to shear.
She was teaching me language, some unknown reason she stopped that, I was looking for cause, but can’t find any. It’s hurts when you are looking for a reason and can’t find.
However, It is one way love, she hasn’t got any idea that-I like her. She is 5 years younger than me,( i know this is not a big deal), she has got strong personality, I’m really scared I’ll lose mine, which I don’t want. She is not mature enough yet.
When a dream goes broken, of course there is pain in heart, but we have to carry on moving...!!

NB : To my language teacher.OZ....

Not Romantic Enough !

When I said let’s walk in to the Rain
You said you don’t want to get wet!

In the beach when I asked how are you feeling?
You replied ‘cold’!!
Full-Moon light when I offered long driving trip,
You said you are feeling sleepy!
When I brought you a present!
You asked me, why I’ve waste my money???
I’m not Surprise when you said ‘I am not romantic enough’!!!!

Money, Sex, Life & Theory of HasAn !!

Grand Rules - (1) ''Money can make sex time longer..!!!''

 (2) '' True Love can be coz of lost personality..!!!''

 (3)- '' For sex Love is not important but for Love sex is important...!!!''

 (4)-'' No one is essential for no one, so Love, Family or commitment those are kind of motivation for having sex...!!!''

 (5)- ‘’ Love, affection, fondness, relationship-all are one kind of contact for safe future sex...!!!’’

 (6)-'' Hate and Love are always going together, if one is ends  second one is start increasing...!!!’’

 (7)-'' This life, age, romance, sex, family all are some kind of fools  work, only 5/4 minutes stupid fun or satisfactions...!!!’’

 (8)-'' Human nature always want to test the difference, So if someone wants to stay rest of life with only one men or women, he/she is one of the most stupid person in this world......!!!

 (9)-'' break up with someone means start up with some other one, it means Love always find someone for drink or having sex again whenever you break up.

 (10)-''The significant problems you face with your boy or girlfriend cannot be solved at the same level of love, sex or romance thinking that crated them, Both have to give fathomless love, sex and romance ......!!!

 (11)-''In a relationship, boy and girl both know what are those problems between them, but most of the time they don’t want to solve those problems purposely, because, human always want to walk with problem.

 (12)-When every someone start measuring how much love he/she is giving to the boy/girl friend and how much getting in return, surely very soon the relationship will end-up (break up).

 (13) ''The definition of Good & Bad or right & wrong are always change very rapidly so, today’s bad relationship, sex, romance might be good tomorrow...’’.

 (14) ''The length of real love, relationship and sex are always very short, people who does long love, sex or romances surely that is fake or acting... ’’

 (15)The life circle of human life is very short, Most of the people do finish their time with fighting, hate and regret with lover. The time of happiness is shorter than the time of sadness, where people spend their time most.

 (16) In the relationship if anyone wants to be happy and want to make relationship longer, the exceptions form boy or girlfriend need to be 0.00%.Even in terms of sex. So, boy or girl no one will be hurt ... ’’

 (17) After having sex with the partner every time, the love and attraction for the partner is reducing every time. AS result one day they break up ... ’’

 (18) Human always upset their rhythm by thinking ‘what will happen tomorrow and by forgetting about today’. When they don’t know will they have enough time tomorrow..? If someone has got today make the most.

 (19)’’ Knowing every things about the boy/girl friend or partner means, ‘knowing one fifth of her/his life. Lots of hidden parts, chapters and agenda still uncovered, No one will know.... ’’

 (20) ’’Unfulfilled desire kill human thousand times, it's much better to die ones rather than thousands, average intelligent people always try herd to fulfil their all desires, even if it’s having sex with slut.

 (21)’’ People always give their true, real Love to someone who doesn’t deserve it, who is not capable to give the price of real and true love. The time He or she fiend out the reality and truth, it’s too late to make things right..’’.

 (22)’’ people think that’ he/she is different from others; he/she has got some extra quality which no one has.' But in terms of love, sex or affection all are same..! Everyone wants to win in the game of love…&..!!! ’’.

 (23)’’ Most of the time people can’t say which they wanted to say, truly someone wants to say ‘I love u or I want to have sex with you’ but he/she can't , because fear of denies ( One of the biggest problem for being human)…..!!! ’’

 (24)’’ Some people say- their extremely honest, surely they don’t have chance to be dishonest. If someone has got little chance to do something wrong he/she will do that, it could be money, could be having sex with someone or doing some things unethical .…..!!! ’’

 (25)’’ An educated person can do ‘‘an educated way of sex, educated affection, educated way of cheating, educated fraud…..!!! ’’

 (26)’’ Human never get complete satisfaction, when someone has one house, car, he/she always wants 2nd one or more, Even every one want to get second boy or girl friend, if someone has got any chance to get 2nd boy/girl friend, surely he/she will go for it …..!!! ’’

 (28)’’ In human life whenever they realized that.- they could have done better, it’s always too late. Whenever human became satisfied, they start feeling bored, same like everyone feels after having/finishing sex …..!!! ’’

 (29)’’ Because of ‘lie’ the life is that much beautiful. Every one ‘tells’ a lie to impress boy or girl friend. After falling in love every one ‘lies’ to Parents, having sex with different person people tell a ‘lie’. ‘Lie’ makes human life easier and perfect…..’’.

Matter & Anti Matter: Black Hole

Matter & Anti Matter: Black Hole: Black Hole As a physist’s perspective, we do not really understand Black hole. Here is an introduction to the enigmatic inhabitants ...

Black Hole

Black Hole
As a physist’s perspective, we do not really understand Black hole. Here is an introduction to the enigmatic inhabitants of the cosmos.
Black Holes are one of the strangest, most mysterious and destructive things that exist in the universe. But we can’t see them, the picture of black holes all are computer graphics, because, we can’t photographed them. Black holes are cosmic bodies with such immense gravity, nothing can escape them. For their lives to start, a star has to die, stars are effectively huge nuclear reactors, fuelled by hydrogen, at the end of their lives, when the fuel runs out, they dies. When this happened, stars the size of our sun to become much smaller bodies, known as white dwarf.
When bigger stars die!  They destroy themselves in explosion known as ‘Supernovas.’ If the explosion is 30 times more mass then our Sun Black hole can be formed. As outer layers of the star blow off into space, the core of the stars, which can be as big as planet, is crushed down to almost nothings. The whole process can take less than a second. What is left is an object that has the same mass as the core of the star, but it packed into a much less- much smaller space. Despite being significantly smaller, it still exerts the same gravitational pull. This incredibly powerful entity, which is small but massive at the same time, is what we have come to know as a black hole!
From the moment of their creation, some black hole begins firing out great jets of radiation. The immense gravitational pull from the holes means that anything that strays too close to them is powerless to escape. Even a nearby stars would be torn apart. The matter form it’s surface being pulled onto orbit around the hole, that poll from the black hole is so strong that eventually, it is impossible to escape that poll. This terrifying point of no return is known as a ‘Event Horizon. Everything in its path is sucked in, and the more the swallows, the bigger the black hole became. Beyond the event horizon, not even light can travel fast enough to escape. That is why we can’t see them, and how they get their name. They are quite literally black hole in space. If by some miracle, we were to survive the tidal forces at the event horizon and fall in to a black hole, we would be ripped apart, but nobody knows who long that would take.
How we can say there are Black hole ???